penny.

i hope you're as happy as you've ever been.

i miss your kisses and your warm little body behind my knees.

my heart breaks when i think of you.

i love you penny puppy.

<3

my love in sprinkles.

to my besties,

i made 16 cupcakes today.

each cupcake has about 50 sprinkles.

i love you about 10x each sprinkle.

[thats a lot of love.]

come eat one with me. <3

rush.

you know that feeling on the swings when you lean back so far that for a couple seconds you're upside down?

thats what if feels like to be with you.

enjoyable in every sense of the word.

terrifying if anything were to go wrong.

but then safe and comfortable when you come back up.

a rush.

just don't let me lean back too far.

i'm sick.

call me old fashioned,
call me a romantic,
but i thought it was pretty cute,
when he gave me his handkerchief. <3

i didn't do that well in trig.

i thought that the ups and downs were just for before.
but there are ups and downs now too.
i fucked up.
i broke the up.
god, i hope that the down doesn't plunge so low.
i'll climb like an animal to get back up again though.
but only the right way - i wont cut corners.
just because its up and down doesn't mean that its left and right.
we won't go back. only forward.
but now... i want the high of yesterday to return - for you too.
why we're down here; well, i'll leave that in the past. its so much better that way.
i had to bring it to the surface so that i can finally lock it up and keep it back there.
if you'll only help us climb, i promise it'll get better now.
the road ahead looks a lot steadier.
the y coordinates are gonna just keep increasing as the x values keep going.
and they seem [as i hope they will] to go on forever.


i love you. i broke the up, but i won't break us.

turkeys.

its a day off of work [for most], a day off of school, and a time you get to spend talking and laughing with your family.

but we don't need a holiday to be thankful.

[especially one that is more myth and lies than truth and positive rejoice.]

don't celebrate thanksgiving today. celebrate those who you are thankful for with love and give thanks everyday.

i am thankful for every single person in my life that has added to my happiness and well being especially the people that i love; my familia, my friends, and my love. I am thankful for having a place to live, air to breathe, and food to eat. i am thankful for laughter and the overwhelming hope i have for love in this world. i am thankful for opportunity and knowledge and the exciting life that has not yet been lived.

my day.

i wish i could have just stayed in the waltz of the flowers all day.

for you on your birthday,

for your birthday, lets do everything.

                lets do nothing.

                               lets spin around in circles and
                                 laugh so hard that cake comes out
           our noses.

iloveyou.

happy birthday.

Stars?

no, raindrops.

i want it to rain all day and all night.

and tomorrow, if its not raining anymore,

look up.

clear, perfect skies are in your future.

[take that how you will.]

lets create together.

Having time for someone and making time

for someone are two different things.

its the effort that counts here.

i love you for missing me.